Live With No Regrets, Just Don't Lie About Your Age.

 When your a young teen stupid things like a group of girls whispering about you seem like the world is going to end. When you become a young adult these things are so trivia. This story I am about to tell you happened when I was 15. I had recently lost a lot of weight so my confidence skyrocketed, I was feeling great and my confidence showed.

I remember being on Facebook one day and there was this really cute guy that started messaging me. We will call this guy Thomas. Thomas was really good looking (in my opinion) and we started flirting with each other. As days went on we started to like each other and would talk every day. I remember telling my friends in school about him and one friend of mine, in particular, said ''Your too good looking to be talking to somebody like him'' I remember thinking to myself why would you even say something like that? It doesn't matter what your friends think about somebody, if you like him/her go for it. I ignored her and told her that I liked him regardless of what she thought.

After talking for some time I and Thomas finally met and instantly when I saw him I knew there was an attraction there for both of us. Maybe it was the way we looked into each other's eyes or the way we smiled at each other. Though looking back at it, it was defiantly just lusting through 15 year old me thought it ran deeper than that. This was the first guy that I generally really fancied because if you knew me then you would know I am picky with who I find physically appealing. After meeting and enjoying each other's company, we kissed and it felt magical than one thing led to another and we got a bit carried away. This wasn't my proudest moment and hindsight is a wonderful thing because I should have had more respect for myself than to give parts of me away to somebody I had only known for such a short amount of time. It has taken me nearly 20 years to figure out; that only those who deserve you should see you on an intimate level. I am such a spur of the moment type of person and I never think about the consequences until a later date. My best advice is to wait and let people prove themselves to you.

Though believe it or not though this was not what ended things between us. He ended up turning out to be a decent bloke, but we will get into that a little bit later. Things was going amazing, I really started liking him. We had loads in common, my parents liked him. He was talkative, came from a decent home, had a good sense of humor, and as a bonus was easy on the eyes. Everything was going really well for a couple of weeks until one day I received a message from a girl I did not like from primary school. I hate to diss people and this is not my intention but me and this girl had problems stemming back from primary school so when I saw her in my inbox I was very confused. She sent me a very blunt message asking ''When is my birthday''. I remember thinking that was super weird considering we were the same age and went to school together. So I answered her back telling her my age because how could I lie?. She then messaged me one last time and said ''I thought so''.

I messaged Thomas not thinking anything about my conversation with her and he was acting off with me (A girl knows). I then proceeded to ask him what was wrong with him and just while I was typing my message, my heart sunk. He had messaged saying that I had lied about my age and that he can no longer see me because I was underage (He was 16). I re-read my messages to him because I could not remember lying about my age and wanted to send proof that I had not lied until I realized that I had made a white lie literally in our first ever conversation. I had told him in our first conversation that I had recently turned 16 when in actual fact my birthday was literally around the corner. When I wrote the message about my age, though it is not justified I could not be bothered to explain the ins and outs and I never thought anything with him would have progressed. (How wrong was I). After finally explaining myself, he had asked me to give him a couple of days to think. I think every girl can relate to this that when a guy you like sends you a message like that it is the most painful couple of days; overthinking and trying to analyse every conversation you had with him. So I patiently waited and I was so upset when he came back to me a couple of days later, saying that he can not be with me because I am still a minor.

I will be honest, at the time of receiving this message I acted badly. I had sent him some nasty messages that I regret. It took me a while to get over this. Not due to feelings (they were never that strong anyway) but because of the rejection. I HATE REJECTION. He moved on with a girl that I was pretty envious of but I moved on with my life. And a couple of years later he slid back into my DMS.

The moral of this story is to not LIE about your age. This can seriously get Men into trouble if you cried wolf and is very unfair because you could ruin their lives and that is not a game, it is nasty and vindictive. You can't dish out and expect nothing in return so please don't ever lie about your age. If the guy likes you enough to get past you being a minor that is down to him. Summarizing this experience Thomas was a very decent guy not to get involved with me and his parents should be proud of the person they raised. I wish him all the best in life.

*Disclaimer* All stories of mine are 100% true though the names of people in my stories will be changed due to respecting their privacy and identity. #Lustnotlove #Teenager