Am I Spirtual?

 A couple of people I have come across in my life has told me that I have another sense

The first-ever person who told me this was my Grandma. When I was younger I very much saw life as black and white. In a lot of ways, I was like my Mum but my Dad's Mum was really into tarot and being in tune with one's spiritual self. She used to always tell me ''Your so much like me'' but I used to think she was crazy. When I turned 14 and my Grandma passed away somehow I became more of a complex character. I started seeing the world differently and became more in tune with my emotions.

Some of the stories I tell my students in class mind blows them. They think I'm one crazy person. I have so many beliefs and possibilities that on occasion I actually tire myself out. I could be ready to pass out asleep and then all of a sudden I can have an epiphany on where human beings come from and be wide awake.

I am a divided person. On one hand, I believe in Aliens thanks to my Dad and on the other I was raised catholic thanks to my Mum so I also believe in God.

I have tried all sorts of ways to become more spiritually awoken. From crystal healing, to chants, to having spiritual guidance counselors to yoga and Meditation. I'm even debating doing an ojuii board.

But the one main question I ask myself is have these paranormal experiences I have had been real or have I led myself to believe they are?

I get this question a lot when I tell my stories- Have you seen a ghost? The answer to that is no apart from one but I have spoken to them and I have felt their presents.

When a ghost is around you; the atmosphere and temperature go really really cold. It feels almost as if you have left your body behind. These ghostly chills for me are so peaceful. I usually get these chills go through my back all the way through my body. However, I get extremely emotional for a couple of seconds and start to cry.

I have had FOUR major experiences happen to me in my 21 years of life.

1) Seeing my Grandad (who I've never met) when I was 4 years old at my Nans funeral. I remember this vivid memory. Everybody was crying and praying when I saw a fragile man behind the priest. I couldn't understand why nobody else was seeing him. He was looking in my Nan coffin when he walked behind the priest and looked directly at me in total shock. I described my grandad casually to my Mum and her Brothers and Sisters at my Nans wake. I described his physical appearance to what he looked like when it came to the end of his life (he had a lung problem) even though I had never seen a picture of him

2) When I was 16 I met my first boyfriend who had some personal issues which were affecting our relationship. His recent uncle had passed away when he went to see a medium who told him that his uncle had said for him to be more open with those he loves or he will lose them (I was close to breaking up with him) joking around one late evening- I had asked what his uncle's name was and he said ''John'' I jokingly looked up and said ''Thank you John'' around 3 am we both heard ''Your welcome'' I quickly ran downstairs to see if it was my parents but it wasn't and there was nobody on our street at that time.

3) About two years ago I was asleep in my bedroom when all of a sudden I started getting emotional chills run through my body. The next thing I know I have an image in my head of my cousin's boyfriend's brother who committed suicide jumping off the bridge feeling every emotion and regret he had. This was so strange because I had never met his brother before.

4) 3 days leading up to my Aunts death. Her kitchen is significant because we used to always smoke and chat there. Next to the window where we used to talk she had some fairy lights that is impossible to turn the button on unless you physically press down. Me and Mum was talking in the front room of her flat about my Nan and Grandads deaths, I went into the kitchen to get something, I then went back 5 minutes after realizing I left something behind and When I came in her lights (which was off) were flicking on. It was impossible as nobody has been into that kitchen. Instantly I felt a presence literally going in and out of my body. I ran into my Mum who then went on to tell me our family friend had the exact same experience as me on the Friday.

There have been more experiences that have occurred but these four are the ones that really stand out in my mind.

I'd like to believe I'm not crazy just slightly different. These experiences have given me hope that maybe there is something out there after our time is up in this world.

If anybody else has had any experiences, private message me!!

Erin x